My Ways

This past week I have been reminded of the following verses:

Isaiah 55:8-9
⁸ "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD.

⁹ "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.

Last Monday my doctor's office called to tell me that my blood work from the initial glucose test came back and that my levels were elevated. So that meant that I had to go in and take the 3 hour glucose test. Let's talk about how much of a beating that is...you have to fast for 8 hours before taking the test and then you drink this nasty orange substance and have your blood drawn 4 times in a three hour period. The only part I was worried about was the not eating part...there are some days when my little man won't even give me a chance to eat in the morning before I get sick. Luckily I didn't get sick or else I would have had to start the process all over on another day. Well I got another call from my doctor on Thursday and my levels were still elevated, which means that I have gestational diabetes (GD). GD is high blood sugar that starts or is first diagnosed during pregnancy. The goals of treatment are to keep blood glucose levels within normal limits during pregnancy and to make sure the baby is healthy. I knew that this was a possibility after having to go in for the second test, but I can honestly say that was I still surprised and definitely upset when the nurse called to tell me. I am the type of person who likes to be in control of things...I usually have everything pretty planned out and deviating from that plan is out of the question. GD was really not in my pregnancy plan. So after a good cry in my car (because that seemed like a good thing to do at the time), I called my mom and told her the news. She's been so supportive and encouraging during my pregnancy and this time was no different. She knows me so well and knew that I would be feeling helpless and she so gently reminded me of the above-mentioned verses...that my ways are not God's ways...His ways are higher than mine. God knew this was going to happen during my pregnancy and he knows how the rest is going to play out. I can plan all I want, but God is going to do what He wants to do...because HE KNOWS WHAT'S BEST FOR ME (and my baby)! My mom even said to just go ahead and plan on having a c-section, that way it won't be any surprise to me if it happens. So this "has-a-plan-and-needs-to-stick-with-it" girl is learning to let go and let God take control, once again. I meet with my doctor tomorrow and then a diabetes specialist on Tuesday. I know that whatever my treatment is, I can do it with God's help.

Sometimes we all need to be reminded that:

⁸ "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD.

⁹ "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.

Cass